One Step Forward…

Well hey, everybody!

To say it’s been awhile would be an understatement, so let’s just say this – I’m not dead. Hooray! Much has happened over the last….ahem….almost 3 months (ew, gross), and most of it has absolutely nothing to do with me and my weight loss journey.

HOWEVER. I got up yesterday morning, after a glorious, relaxing, beautiful Spring Break, and I decided to go to Weight Watchers. It wasn’t even a decision to “get back on track”, honestly, my first step was just getting my ass out of bed on a Saturday and heading to the 9:30am meeting. (Trust me, that in itself was damn close to a miracle.)

Full disclosure here – when I went to WW yesterday morning, it had been at least 3 weeks since my last weigh-in. My expectations were low – in fact, I think I said to Walter, “I really hope that I haven’t gained 10 pounds.” But I hadn’t! I certainly hadn’t lost weight, but like I said – my expectations were low. All the world needs to know is my current weight, because this feels a little bit like starting over.

Current weight: 203.8 pounds

I’m still going to measure my success from the beginning of the journey, but today really feels like I’m starting over. And that’s okay. I mean, how many times did Thomas Edison have to start over? Or Sara Bareilles? (Yep, those are the only two famous, successful people who popped into my head. Get over it.)

Today, I’m taking one step forward. I’m not dwelling on all the steps I’ve taken back, I’m simply taking one step forward. Actually, it’s more like 2 or 3 steps forward. I weighed in at WW, I’m writing a blog post – I might even go to the grocery store today. **gasp**

One thing that has happened over the last few months will greatly impact my daily/weekly routine, so I thought I would let the blogging world know. In December, Walter was offered a totally fabulous and awesome new job – in Dallas. I am SO incredibly happy for him, because he deserves every bit of amazing success in his totally rockin’ career. However, this does mean that we are going to be long distance for awhile. He was able to work from home in Austin for the last two months, but just yesterday he moved all of his things to a totally killer apartment in downtown Dallas. I’ll be honest – it’s going to be really, really hard to be without him during the week, especially when it comes to cooking. (Over the past few months, the ONLY way we ate a home-cooked meal was because he so wonderfully made it for us.) A big reason why I’m blogging today is to get my mind back in the right mental place to start eating healthy ALL the time, with or without my cook of a boyfriend. I just didn’t want all six of you reading this blog to worry about me and WRG. He’s still as amazing as ever! :)

My mom always tells me, when I’m feeling down or in a rough spot, to write down 10 things for which I am grateful RIGHT NOW. Today I would like to take that advice, and share my findings with you.

10 (ish) Things For Which I’m Grateful TODAY: Sunday, March 17th

1. My family. No matter the situation, my mom and dad are ALWAYS there for me. Always.
2. This guy:
IMG_26403. Dark chocolate. Not a day goes by that I am NOT thankful for dark chocolate.
4. Dear, DEAR friends who understand me and put up with all my weirdness.
5. Starbucks. But only because I don’t have internet until Tuesday, and they have a 7-point yummy breakfast wrap.
7. Really, REALLY pink shoes. I can’t properly explain you how happy they make me.
photo 38. My incredibly demanding and TOTALLY rewarding job.
9. Playing music. Check out this amazing band I’ve been playing with: KP and the Boom Boom. We had a gig last night at SXSW. Amazing.
photo 410. FRUIT. Fruit is my weight-loss savior.
11. This blog!
12. Weight Watchers. I wouldn’t be where I am without it.
photo 1

That’s where we are today! To those of you still reading – thank you. Writing this blog helps more than you will ever know.

Happy St. Patrick’s Day!



Me – after a year of being at Weight Watchers! (With really wonderful friends before a 5K!)

As of Monday, November 19, 2012, I have been an active member of Weight Watchers for exactly one year.  This being my one-year anniversary on this wonderful, difficult, up and down, exhausting, and amusing journey, I thought I would do a little bit of reflecting.

When I started this blog, I was angry.  I was feeling fat, in pain, pissed off, and ready to change something.  I hit the ground running, lost 25 pounds in the first 9 weeks, changed my eating and exercise habits, and totally rocked out.

Then things started to slow a little bit, because that’s what happens in any weight loss journey.  Your body goes, “Oh my god.  You’ve stopped putting terrible food in me!  I must drop all the pounds!” and then after a few months, “Ahhhhh, I see where this is going.  I’m going to crave things I shouldn’t and stop losing as quickly because the honeymoon’s over, lady.  Way, way over.”  (I’m not sure if your body talks to you, but mine does to me.  It’s really chatty.)

And then life happened.  I quit my job and spent almost 2 months being unemployed and with WAY too much free time on my hands.  My weight fluctuated up and down, every single week, because I just wasn’t as dedicated as I was at the beginning.  My focus was elsewhere – socializing, spending money I didn’t have, and building a wonderful life with my boyfriend.  I’m really glad that I had that time for myself – but it didn’t do great things for my weight-loss success.

When I started my teaching job, things turned around a bit.  I was on my feet all day long, eating healthy breakfasts and packing healthy lunches, and just being too busy and overwhelmed to really eat bad things.  I FINALLY got past my 35 pounds, and my body was kind of going through a second honeymoon.  (Greedy body, needing more than one honeymoon.)

Then we moved.  And my year got more stressful.  And I got really sick.  And once again, life happened.  BECAUSE THAT’S WHAT LIFE DOES.  These last few weeks are a perfect example of how much your weight can fluctuate from week to week.  Check it out.


November 10, 2012
Weight loss that week: 2.4 pounds (AND I WAS SO EXCITED BECAUSE IT WAS 40 POUNDS TOTAL YAAYYYYY…..but wait for it.)

November 17, 2012
Weight gain that week: 4.8 pounds (are. you. kidding. me.)

November 24, 2012
Weight loss this week: 1.6 pounds (thank HEAVENS for this)
TOTAL weight loss: 38.2 pounds

It wasn’t totally terrible, but in three weeks, my total was a gain of 0.8 pounds.  Not exactly going in the right direction.  But when I was sick, I didn’t eat much because I didn’t feel like eating much, got to a total of 40 pounds lost, and was preemptively overjoyed.  As I got healthier, I started craving all the food I didn’t eat while I was sick, retained a bunch of water, was PMSing, and gained FOUR POINT EIGHT pounds at my next weigh-in.  (I actually laughed when I got on the scale.  It was extra funny, because it was immediately following my completion of a 5K.  This is not an opportune time to weigh-in, friends.)

This week, my parents came into town.  (I had an amazing FULL week off from school.  It was incredibly necessary.  And wonderful.)  Austin is known for its ridiculous plethora of amazing restaurants, so naturally we went out to eat frequently during the week.  But my dear mother, who is also an incredibly successful WW member, was there to remind me that we didn’t have to overindulge every single time.  We ate a lot of incredible food, but we also made lunch/dinner at home a couple of times.

To add to our list of slightly more healthy decisions – Thanksgiving!

(Isn’t our little table so cute??)  One of the things we talked about at our WW meeting yesterday was how to deal with the things that you really feel you cannot live without on Thanksgiving.  For me, that involves mashed potatoes, stuffing, and pumpkin pie. Solution? I ate small portions of stuffing and pumpkin pie, and made this killer mashed potato/cauliflower recipe.  Everything was delicious.

Doesn’t that look yummy?  And kind of healthy?  And Thanksgiving-y?  We’re not super into cooking for Thanksgiving, so we picked up our delicious turkey from Rudy’s.  That was possibly the best decision ever.  (Not pictured: scrumptious pumpkin pie.)

When I weighed in yesterday, I was very glad to see that I was back down 1.6 pounds. (Doesn’t exactly offset that giant gain the week before, but I’ll take it.)  I started thinking about this blog post and how I would feel so stupid coming back AGAIN to say – “I really need to get back on track.  Now is the time for me to get amped up again.  This is going to be a great week!  I will NEVER STRAY AGAIN!”  It feels stupid because I’ve said it so many times before on this blog.  Where, you might ask?  Oh, how about here.  Or here.  Also here.  Oh wait – here, too.  (I forgot about that one!  That one was angry….)

But as I read through old posts from this blog, I noticed a trend.  Almost every time that I vowed to get better, channeled my self-loathing into healthy decisions, wrote about all the changes I would make – my next weigh-in was pretty awesome.  So I DON’T feel stupid writing about this.  I don’t feel stupid saying that this week WILL be better.  I don’t feel stupid saying that WRG and I are going to the store today, with a comprehensive grocery list, informed by a detailed food plan for the week.  I feel great saying that I am going to try to take my workout clothes to work so I can go straight to the gym.  I feel proud that I didn’t completely overindulge this last week and that I’m now looking forward to 40 pounds lost without using my sickness to get there.

Now I’m amped.  Are you?


My dear, sweet, kind, loving, amazing readers.  (And I am not at ALL saying that because I haven’t posted in forever and I’m a terrible person and possibly the worst weight loss blogger ever.)

An update:

October 20, 2012
Weight gain that week: 1.0 pounds

October 27, 2012
Weight loss that week: 2.2 pounds!!
TOTAL weight loss: 39.0 pounds

I didn’t weigh-in.  Yep.  Terrible person.

Saturday was a long day, and that’s why I didn’t weigh-in.  I judged region band all day long, thought I might be able to weigh-in afterwards, but couldn’t because I WAS THERE FOREVER.  But let’s be TOTALLY honest here.  I could have figured that out before and weighed-in earlier in the week.  I chose to be lazy.  I chose to wait until the last minute and only really have one possible weighing-in option and I blew it.  And this week, I was determined to get this posted by the next time I weighed in – so naturally I waited until the last possible day.

Part of that is because I am sick.  So sick that I’ve been home from school since Wednesday, and I haven’t been inspired to do anything except sit and sleep and watch TV.  It’s SO annoying.  But at least I haven’t been that hungry!  It’s the little things, right?? Ugh.  Whatever.  I caught up on my soaps.  (And by “soaps” I mean “fairy-tale related shows”.  You know, Once Upon a Time and Grimm.  Soaps is just more fun to say.)

These last few weeks have been hard, and not really for any good reason.  Yes, we moved, and yes, I’m sick, and yes, teaching is hard – but there’s always going to be something, isn’t there?  Some of you are probably wondering why in the world I’m complaining, being that I was down 2.2 pounds two weeks ago, but I’m just being honest. I know that I have not been making the best decisions.  And I will tell you that.  Even though I could lie and you’d never know (never know, never know, never know **fading out**… know, like an echo?  Ugh, internet is hard.)

And I certainly haven’t been exercising.  I have figured out, however, that if I come home and sit on the couch, I don’t intend to move again unless it involves food or sleeping. Unless there is a meal or a bed coming my way, I’m probably not going to vacate our amazing and wonderful couch.  Solution?  Work out before I get home.  Hooray!  Of course, the first time I tried that, I got sick.  Literally.  The FIRST day I packed a bag of work-out clothes to take to work, I started feeling yucky and now I’ve been out for 3 days straight.  I do believe that means I’m allergic to working out.  (That’s the only logical explanation, here.)

Since I’m not so motivational with the whole weight losing thing, let’s talk about other things.  We moved!  WRG and I are now in a 2 bed 2 bath in a beautiful neighborhood in an apartment that we love – but MOST IMPORTANTLY I DON’T HAVE TO DRIVE ALL DAY TO GET TO WORK.  (I’M NOT EXAGGERATING THAT WAS MY LIFE.  BUT YOU SHOULD KNOW THAT IF I’M TALKING IN ALL CAPS I AM MOST LIKELY BLOWING THINGS OUT OF PROPORTION.)  We’ve spent the last few weeks spending way too much money and trying to make it feel like home.  Our epic bookcases are up – and the chalkboard has a new place in the dining room (with Bach and Beethoven prominently displayed):

I stuck placemats to the wall.  I love them.

(I promise our walls aren’t as green as our lighting/my iPhone makes them look.  But they are just a little greener than one might like…we’re working with it.)

And our porch is so pretty (AND WALTER IS OFFICIALLY A MAC CONVERT!!!!).

We love it here.  And I don’t feel nearly as stressed when I get home, because I haven’t driven for ELEVENTY HOURS.

That’s the update.  I absolutely WILL weigh-in tomorrow, and then I will tell you all about it. I really hope this sickness leaves soon, because I was just getting motivated to get back on track with exercising.  Here’s to a healthy weekend!


I owe this blog, like, the most epic post in the history of posts – with pictures and videos and statistical graphs and glitter cannons and everything awesome and interesting. Naturally, that means I’m just going to babble and babble some more and maybe throw in a photo here and there.  Even WordPress was mad when I went to their website to write this post – it was all “You have to sign in because you haven’t been here in forever.  Oh, and we got new fonts.  SUCK IT.”

WordPress is so rude.

Oh, and remember when I said this whole not blogging thing wasn’t a trend?  Yeah, apparently I suck a little bit lately.

Let’s start off with this – the last three weeks have gone as follows:

September 29, 2012
Weight gain that week: 1.8 pounds

October 6, 2012
Weight that week: MAINTAINED!

Weight loss this week: 0.8 pounds
Current weight: 198.0 pounds
TOTAL weight loss: 37.8 pounds

(If you’re as confused as I am, just check out the Weight Tracking page.)

I’m kind of waffling around (haha, waffling, get it?  Because this is a weight loss blog?  I’m so funny…) with this whole losing weight thing, and it’s because I like to eat food that’s bad for me in the evenings and on weekends.  Truly.  That’s it.  During the week, I wake up in the morning, I eat Fiber One cereal with almond milk or a Smart Ones breakfast sandwich, I bring my lunch to school (because I really have no other choice) consisting of a sandwich/chips/fruit/string cheese/Fiber One bar or a Lean Cuisine.  That’s my daily routine Monday-Friday.

Evenings are hard, because this is my normal school day: wake up friggin early, drive 40 minutes to school, spend 11 hours there teaching the children how to play music and be slightly less weird, and drive an hour back home.  By the time I walk in the door, it’s usually close to or past 7:00pm, and I want indian food.  Or pizza.  And ice cream.  Loooooots of ice cream.  And wine!  I want wine, too!

Sometimes, I’m really good at saying no to all of that stuff.  And then sometimes I eat indian food pizza with wine-flavored ice cream.  You never know how the night is going to go.

I know I’m making excuses for my misdeeds, but that’s just my life right now.  It’s hard to be good when it just feels sooooo good (for about 10 minutes) to be bad.  And Austin needs to stop having such amazing restaurants.  Bastards.

This most recent week was a little better – we cooked and worked out one night!  Yaayyy!

(This is me, proving that I worked out.  I guess it really only proves that I put on work-out pants and tennis shoes and stood on gravel/greenery, but I promise I went on a 3-mile ralk outside.  Although, it was more walking than running.)  I even had my first band concert this week!  (It was a little stressful, but also incredibly awesome.)

On top of all that, we’re moving this week!  SUPER excited about this because 1) the new place is 2-bed-2-bath and totally rad, and 2) MY DRIVE TO SCHOOL WILL BE SO MUCH SHORTER NOW.  Less excited, because our lives are currently in a state of total chaos. The new place looks a little like this right now:

His and hers seating.  We classy.  (Also, do you see our wood-like material flooring??  I am way too excited about it.)

This week is going to be a little crazy with moving and cleaning and trying not to go completely insane.  However, we went to the grocery store yesterday and bought a bunch of easy lunch/dinner meals for the week, plus fruit and pop chips and all of our other usual snacky-type foods.

And if moving a million heavy boxes down 2 flights of stairs and then up 1 flight of stairs isn’t working out, I don’t know what is.

Down 0.2 Pounds

First of all, I’d like to apologize for my serious hiatus the last two weeks.

Secondly, I didn’t weigh-in this week.  More about that to come.

Thirdly, I’d just like to state that this is just a bump in the road – I promise this is not a trend. You guys have to help me stay on track.

STATS (for last week)
Weight loss last week: 0.2 pounds
Current weight: 197.0 pounds
TOTAL weight loss: 38.8 pounds

It’s better than nothing!  The previous two weeks were so awesome – I’m just glad I maintained the weight loss.  I think the days of eating moderately well during the week without exercising and still losing weight are over.  I need to work a little harder!

About this week – it was a rough one.  I didn’t feel well all week long (I’ll spare you the gory details), and it was incredibly hard to stay on track.  Plus, I had a birthday dinner!  (Which would have been awesome, if I didn’t feel terrible.)  All in all, it was a bleh piece of bleh.

I came home Friday night and sort of fell apart.  In that moment, I decided that I didn’t want to weigh-in on Saturday morning.  For a brief second, I felt guilty.  And then I knew that I wasn’t physically or emotionally in the right place to go to WW in the morning.  I gave myself a seriously-needed break.  I know that I can’t always do this – I would never make any progress.  But it was just straight up necessary this week.  Oh, and I’m PMSing.

The perfect crapstorm of suck.**

So I took a week off.  I’m still feeling sort of yucky, but I think I’m on the uphill slope of this whole thing.  Let’s hope I can get back in gear this week.

**I’m totally copyrighting this phrase.  Right now.

Down 1.2 Pounds

And we continue the downward trend!

Weight loss this week: 1.2 pounds
Current weight: 197.2 pounds
TOTAL weight loss: 38.6 pounds

Nathan Russell Photography better get ready.  40-pound photos are not that far off. :)

As I said in last week’s post, teaching is a good weight loss program.  I barely have time to sit during my 30-minute lunch, let alone eat an entire meal.  By the way, my go-to packed lunch looks something like this:

•  Sandwich: Nature’s Own Whole Grain Sandwich Round, black peppered turkey
breast, pickles, red pepper hummus
•  Pop chips
•  FRUIT – usually 2 of the following: grapes, orange, apple, banana
•  String cheese – 1 piece for lunch, 1 piece for the drive home
•  Fiber One 90-calorie bar – Chocolate Peanut Butter is the best!
•  Diet Coke or sparkling water

I honestly don’t get that tired of this line-up.  More on packing school lunches later.

This week was somehow harder at school than last week.  Wednesday was a particularly rough day, and I was not in a great mood when I got home.  However, instead of sitting down in front of the TV to drink a beer and watch Chopped all night, I changed into my workout clothes and ralked.  2.4 miles.  In 30 minutes.  I also ran for 8 minutes without stopping at the beginning of the ralk.

You guys this is unheard of.

It was, by far, my fastest time when it comes to ralking.  I had just put in over 11 hours at school, and I still managed to completely kick ass.

This weekend was good for working out as well – I ralked over 6 miles total on Saturday and Sunday around the lake!  (It obviously helped that the weather was the most glorious it’s been in a long time.)  Ralking around that lake might be one of my favorite things to do. The scenery is obviously so beautiful, and the people watching is sublime.  You’re an endless source of entertainment, ATX.

Plus, there’s this:

I truly love this city.  Like I love cheesecake.  (Shut up – I know this is weight-loss blog.  But you know how much I love cheesecake…)

Here’s to another losing week.  Maybe 40 pounds next week?  Let’s not get too overboard here, folks.  Deep breaths.  :)

Down 2.2 Pounds

Uh, yeah.  I would say that teaching suits me.


Weight loss this week: 2.2 pounds
Current weight: 198.4 pounds
TOTAL weight loss: 37.4 pounds

This was such a joyous moment.  The last time that I was below 200 pounds was in May. MAY, PEOPLE.  That’s too long.  And it’s my lowest weight!  Did I mention it’s my lowest weight???

My first week of teaching was awesome.  Awesome and exhausting and long and more difficult than I ever knew it would be.  Despite my levels of being overwhelmed and so far beyond what one might call “stress”, I am back into a routine and it seems to agree with me.  But the biggest reason I’m doing well while teaching?  I only have 30 minutes for lunch, and I’m usually getting things ready for my afternoon classes for about 27 of those 30 minutes.  I make my lunch every day, eat about half of it at actual lunch time, and then finish it on my way home from school (which has been around 6:15pm on average….)  I don’t have time to eat poorly during the day.  It’s truly a blessing in disguise.

Walter also needs a big shout out this week.  When I came home my first few days and just stared at the wall for longer than someone should really stare at a wall before you start to seriously worry about them, he would make dinner and hold my hand and tell me that everything was going to be okay.  Turns out – he was right!  I survived my first week and I’m actively excited about going back to work on Tuesday.  That’s a feeling I haven’t felt in a long time, and it is JOYOUS.  (Don’t get me wrong – I have never loved a weekend more in my life.  But I’m not dreading its ending!)  Walter also made me breakfast tacos yesterday morning that were amazing:

He’s a keeper.

The only thing I didn’t like about this week is that I didn’t work out at all Mon-Fri.  It was actually a miracle that I stayed awake past 8pm, let alone had the energy to work out.  I’m not exactly sure how that’s going to go once I get more used to teaching all day, so we’re just going to play it by ear.  I really want to get to a point where I can still muster up the energy to go for a run or head to a class at 24 Hour Fitness at least 3 times a week.  We are just going to take this once step at a time. :)

I am so incredibly happy that I am back below 200 and at my lowest weight.  Hopefully this week is a little easier at school and just as awesome for my health.  I leave you with yet another sunrise photo – from the first day of school!

Happy 3-day weekend!